I'm still here...really i am.....it's not quite been a year since I checked in and wow a lot has changed...
I've got us caught up on finances- whew! The man-child is, well, almost out now.
And the greatest news? Are you sitting down with an alcoholic beverage in hand? lol ...I'm getting married tomorrow...Valentine's Day.
Where once I felt like a fish slapping in sand...I am now a dolphin roaming and playing daily (but of course- nightly too!) Life is good today....
I need some rest tonite as I know once the morning breaks I must arise and fall into the whirlwind of celebration....so I will end this for now and promise to return so much sooner....
I will achieve greatness in my life at 4 tmw afternoon....be advised- you will feel the vibration as my soul rocks the universe! :o)
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Sunday, April 19, 2009
love, life and laundry
Ok, so I need to steam clean my life...get this young man into a place of his own....get our finances caught up from too many dang bills...get things rolling as far as selling my house to buy another... yep, basically light a fire under my ass....
Sooo what's the hold up? Can't seem to get out of my own way the past couple weeks. I have a one track mind and trust me it isn't on 112 dollars to the light company or which paint would look best in the back room...lol
I think once I was able to round the corner and make my way through the grass, figuratively speaking, she consumed my brain! That's right, it's mushier than four day old oatmeal in milk...no, thankfully it doesn't smell that bad, but gosh, since when did I ever care that new rose bushes need to be planted checker board fashion in the front flower garden?! Just grab the lawnmower and go over that patch of land then no one will know what I'm killing, um, I mean neglecting!
I had to laugh yesterday...she tells me she was on break at work and thinking about the saying,"only the first three inches matter" then wondering just how long her fingers are...rofl.... me, I'm such a dork I picked up a tape measure and proved that yes, she does have three inches! Of course, I have 3 1/2 so life is good! ;oP Then, alas, we've only had three or four hours sleep for the past three nights because we've been busy and her shifts are very early mornings this week sooo we crashed without proving the mightiness of any three inches! I'm so deprived! lol
I almost wish I'd waited until our vacation to run an expedition of her curves and valleys- then I wouldn't be sitting here wishing I could be gathering viable information! Ok, ok, truth is, I ain't all that regretful ;oP .......just tired.......and in need of a little somethin' somethin'..........
Sooo this morning I will be gathering up a shovel and digging holes -checkerboard fashion- in the front garden because this afternoon we will be planting some new rosebushes ---all the while thinking how great it would be to grab her as- um, hand and retreat indoors to a snuggly situation. One can only hope!
In the meantime, if you see my brain floating around please gather and place it in a bowl. I'm sure one day I'll be needing a thought or two!
Sooo what's the hold up? Can't seem to get out of my own way the past couple weeks. I have a one track mind and trust me it isn't on 112 dollars to the light company or which paint would look best in the back room...lol
I think once I was able to round the corner and make my way through the grass, figuratively speaking, she consumed my brain! That's right, it's mushier than four day old oatmeal in milk...no, thankfully it doesn't smell that bad, but gosh, since when did I ever care that new rose bushes need to be planted checker board fashion in the front flower garden?! Just grab the lawnmower and go over that patch of land then no one will know what I'm killing, um, I mean neglecting!
I had to laugh yesterday...she tells me she was on break at work and thinking about the saying,"only the first three inches matter" then wondering just how long her fingers are...rofl.... me, I'm such a dork I picked up a tape measure and proved that yes, she does have three inches! Of course, I have 3 1/2 so life is good! ;oP Then, alas, we've only had three or four hours sleep for the past three nights because we've been busy and her shifts are very early mornings this week sooo we crashed without proving the mightiness of any three inches! I'm so deprived! lol
I almost wish I'd waited until our vacation to run an expedition of her curves and valleys- then I wouldn't be sitting here wishing I could be gathering viable information! Ok, ok, truth is, I ain't all that regretful ;oP .......just tired.......and in need of a little somethin' somethin'..........
Sooo this morning I will be gathering up a shovel and digging holes -checkerboard fashion- in the front garden because this afternoon we will be planting some new rosebushes ---all the while thinking how great it would be to grab her as- um, hand and retreat indoors to a snuggly situation. One can only hope!
In the meantime, if you see my brain floating around please gather and place it in a bowl. I'm sure one day I'll be needing a thought or two!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
I'm still here
Half awake- but still here. It's just been a really busy couple of weeks. All good - but this spring cleaning is shit...seems like whatever I touch creates more work! And having to get it done around the rain showers is a bitch. But I'd rather have rain than snow sooo as much of a pain in the ass as it is, it's still better than icicles forming off my chin.
On the home front, things are good- 'cept I reallllllly want our space back. Probably another month or two til my son gets into his place. Sure has kept the intimacy at bay lately. ugh! lol That and we're having a difference of opinion that I think a lot of people go through.
I want to tell our kids- she doesn't. She thinks it will mess up their heads and they need to get back on their feet first. I don't see what the big deal is- we've been living like this forever already. Just now we've accepted and rolled with it- literally too ;o) lol....our kids wouldn't know what happened if we were not together. We've been bookends for so long, they expect to see us together...I don't know. I just think it would make things a bit easier. Maybe I'm being selfish...but I want to claim the great person I am with.
Only a month to go until our vacation and I think we're going to have a long talk while we're away about living this dual life. I don't want to hide anymore- she's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know she feels the same, she's told me, but she's scared of how other people will start acting. ARG- why can't things be easy?! lol
I can legally marry her ... how cool is that?! That was great news earlier this week. Yes, I am still waiting til later this year to ask her....but knowing it's legal now adds fuel to my fire! Still trying to formulate a totally awesome proposal...I know, it's early yet, but I gots to be prepared! :o)
I'm thinking about renting a beach house...preparing an awesome dinner (she cooks more than me so that will be special in itself) and leaving a dozen roses on the pillow--11 multicolored real roses and one decorative sterling silver rose with a ring box attached and a note that says" I want to decorate every day of the rest of our lives. I'll love you until this last one withers...will you marry me?" Sappy, huh? Dang, I got goosebumps just thinking about it...lol Of course, there will be a few words I'll have to say prior, like how happy she makes me blah blah...Anyway, how does that sound?
I've also thought of going for a midnight walk along the beach and somehow working the flowers in that way...I don't know....suggestions?
Ok, I've rambled on enough. lol Happy Easter everyone.
On the home front, things are good- 'cept I reallllllly want our space back. Probably another month or two til my son gets into his place. Sure has kept the intimacy at bay lately. ugh! lol That and we're having a difference of opinion that I think a lot of people go through.
I want to tell our kids- she doesn't. She thinks it will mess up their heads and they need to get back on their feet first. I don't see what the big deal is- we've been living like this forever already. Just now we've accepted and rolled with it- literally too ;o) lol....our kids wouldn't know what happened if we were not together. We've been bookends for so long, they expect to see us together...I don't know. I just think it would make things a bit easier. Maybe I'm being selfish...but I want to claim the great person I am with.
Only a month to go until our vacation and I think we're going to have a long talk while we're away about living this dual life. I don't want to hide anymore- she's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know she feels the same, she's told me, but she's scared of how other people will start acting. ARG- why can't things be easy?! lol
I can legally marry her ... how cool is that?! That was great news earlier this week. Yes, I am still waiting til later this year to ask her....but knowing it's legal now adds fuel to my fire! Still trying to formulate a totally awesome proposal...I know, it's early yet, but I gots to be prepared! :o)
I'm thinking about renting a beach house...preparing an awesome dinner (she cooks more than me so that will be special in itself) and leaving a dozen roses on the pillow--11 multicolored real roses and one decorative sterling silver rose with a ring box attached and a note that says" I want to decorate every day of the rest of our lives. I'll love you until this last one withers...will you marry me?" Sappy, huh? Dang, I got goosebumps just thinking about it...lol Of course, there will be a few words I'll have to say prior, like how happy she makes me blah blah...Anyway, how does that sound?
I've also thought of going for a midnight walk along the beach and somehow working the flowers in that way...I don't know....suggestions?
Ok, I've rambled on enough. lol Happy Easter everyone.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Spring Cleaning
No, that title isn't a fancy phrase used to denote my new sexual excursions! rofl...but now that my clock gets dusted frequently, it's time to move on to the mundane...it's Spring- time to pull out the lawn mower, clean up the lawn furniture, get the garden ready to plant, and all other things warm weather related.
My son moved home a few months back- "to get on his feet" (translates to "Mommy, take care of me. I'm afraid to face the big bad world alone- can I have another cookie?") and I don't know what has overtaken his body. It's some lazy, inconsiderate, self-absorbed creature who doesn't know to keep its sneakers out of the hall, its razor out of the sink, and for crying out loud its laundry done so the guest room doesn't smell of his jockiness.
In all honesty, he's a good guy but this moving home shit has aged him- backwards! Now, I don't just have 'honey do's' there's 'mommy do's!' And quite frankly it's getting old. He left college and decided to find his way in the real world. Can't blame him for leaving school because of his injuries (he lost his sport scholarships), but gosh darn it, I can't wait to be able to run through the house bare-assed if I want! ;o) Or better, have my sweetie run through bare assed! lol
So, he's here all of a month and he totals his car. Another reason for me to hate black ice. Thankfully, he's all right but all the junk from his vehicle was thrown on the patio to create quite a decorative disgrace. I've been recieving subtle hints ("I really wish this shit would be picked up!") for about two months now. Sooo in the hopes of some happiness...(ok, more like a twinkle in her eye and a smile across her face....ok, ok...more like, he's working tonite and we have the house to ourselves soooo some quiet candlelight and a walk in the park....ok, ok already...a mad passionate "Honey how are you now?! Doesn't the patio rock?!" ;o) rofl)....I just spent an hour out there raking leaves, rearranging furniture and yes, cleaning the freakin' patio...while the creature slept- go figure!
Oh well, Life is still beautiful...enjoy your day. I will now that my patio is rocking!
My son moved home a few months back- "to get on his feet" (translates to "Mommy, take care of me. I'm afraid to face the big bad world alone- can I have another cookie?") and I don't know what has overtaken his body. It's some lazy, inconsiderate, self-absorbed creature who doesn't know to keep its sneakers out of the hall, its razor out of the sink, and for crying out loud its laundry done so the guest room doesn't smell of his jockiness.
In all honesty, he's a good guy but this moving home shit has aged him- backwards! Now, I don't just have 'honey do's' there's 'mommy do's!' And quite frankly it's getting old. He left college and decided to find his way in the real world. Can't blame him for leaving school because of his injuries (he lost his sport scholarships), but gosh darn it, I can't wait to be able to run through the house bare-assed if I want! ;o) Or better, have my sweetie run through bare assed! lol
So, he's here all of a month and he totals his car. Another reason for me to hate black ice. Thankfully, he's all right but all the junk from his vehicle was thrown on the patio to create quite a decorative disgrace. I've been recieving subtle hints ("I really wish this shit would be picked up!") for about two months now. Sooo in the hopes of some happiness...(ok, more like a twinkle in her eye and a smile across her face....ok, ok...more like, he's working tonite and we have the house to ourselves soooo some quiet candlelight and a walk in the park....ok, ok already...a mad passionate "Honey how are you now?! Doesn't the patio rock?!" ;o) rofl)....I just spent an hour out there raking leaves, rearranging furniture and yes, cleaning the freakin' patio...while the creature slept- go figure!
Oh well, Life is still beautiful...enjoy your day. I will now that my patio is rocking!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
After the ecstacy
I'd always heard after the meeting of our most intimate parts, the euphoria would soon wear off and we'd be left amidst the mundane household chores and whatever else previously occupied our time. Ugh! lol
Well, perhaps I'm still in the honeymoon phase...or perhaps I'm dreaming (if that is true- no mf-er better ever wake me up! lol) ...but even the mundane everyday chores are easy now...in fact, we've spent the past fifteen years washing dishes, dusting, grocery shopping, working etc but all of sudden even these activities have taken on new life. Who'd have ever thought? lol
I've known Brenna for over 20 years and lived with her for 3/4 of that. Sure, we've had our arguments but nothing dramatic- just stupid stuff. Now that we're over that "can I make love to a woman" stuff, it's such a relief! Our conversations have taken on a new depth. Stories I've heard a thousand times I can listen to with new eagerness. Life is just tooooo freakin awesome!
Never thought I could be this happy. Never had the capacity to even dream about the intensity of this joy. It's too freakin cool. To finally truly be with the one I love and claim who I am --woohooo! I'm ready to break out the balloons, a keg and have a block party! rofl...
So, now here's the deal....I want to ask her to marry me. Yeah yeah I know we just got here! But have we really? From our conversations of late, we've both been here already for many years...now it's just truly real. I don't plan to ask her until later this year...end of summer or fall. Maybe Christmas- well, I gotta save for a ring, don't I?! lol...I mean a real ring, not that freaking 100 dollar promise one she has now. We used to joke about being "beyond married" before we even admitted how we felt about each other. Shoot we raised our kids together and every other darn thing so perhaps it ain't too soon.
I must figure out a fabulously romantic setting and plan it out ...not for the marriage, for the proposal. I want to do it before we buy our new house....which appears to be next spring. Any ideas? We love the beach so you have to know it will involve the ocean somehow.
She's working now and I have another two hours before I can leave to pick her up. We're going to lunch and then to pay some bills. Nothing special...but then again, everything's special when she's with me! I am a love sick pup!! rofl...
Our morning snuggle time was short today because of the early morning shift she has, but all's good- I'm still pumping on the wonderfully long session last night. ;o) It just keeps getting better!
Ok, enough about this relationship for a minute ( I think I'm gonna burst from the euphoria! lol). It's spring- the crocuses are in bloom, the robins are back and the lilacs are budded. It rocks not hearing "winter storm warning is in effect until blah blah" on the radio every morning. I bought Brenna some rambling roses yesterday so she can decorate the yard. I'm gonna build a cool looking trellis for them to grow along. Freaking plant flowers?! Me?! Wow- life has changed! lol Here I go again....
I'll close now before I spill too much joy all over you! It's sappy sick! rofl
Have a super day!
Well, perhaps I'm still in the honeymoon phase...or perhaps I'm dreaming (if that is true- no mf-er better ever wake me up! lol) ...but even the mundane everyday chores are easy now...in fact, we've spent the past fifteen years washing dishes, dusting, grocery shopping, working etc but all of sudden even these activities have taken on new life. Who'd have ever thought? lol
I've known Brenna for over 20 years and lived with her for 3/4 of that. Sure, we've had our arguments but nothing dramatic- just stupid stuff. Now that we're over that "can I make love to a woman" stuff, it's such a relief! Our conversations have taken on a new depth. Stories I've heard a thousand times I can listen to with new eagerness. Life is just tooooo freakin awesome!
Never thought I could be this happy. Never had the capacity to even dream about the intensity of this joy. It's too freakin cool. To finally truly be with the one I love and claim who I am --woohooo! I'm ready to break out the balloons, a keg and have a block party! rofl...
So, now here's the deal....I want to ask her to marry me. Yeah yeah I know we just got here! But have we really? From our conversations of late, we've both been here already for many years...now it's just truly real. I don't plan to ask her until later this year...end of summer or fall. Maybe Christmas- well, I gotta save for a ring, don't I?! lol...I mean a real ring, not that freaking 100 dollar promise one she has now. We used to joke about being "beyond married" before we even admitted how we felt about each other. Shoot we raised our kids together and every other darn thing so perhaps it ain't too soon.
I must figure out a fabulously romantic setting and plan it out ...not for the marriage, for the proposal. I want to do it before we buy our new house....which appears to be next spring. Any ideas? We love the beach so you have to know it will involve the ocean somehow.
She's working now and I have another two hours before I can leave to pick her up. We're going to lunch and then to pay some bills. Nothing special...but then again, everything's special when she's with me! I am a love sick pup!! rofl...
Our morning snuggle time was short today because of the early morning shift she has, but all's good- I'm still pumping on the wonderfully long session last night. ;o) It just keeps getting better!
Ok, enough about this relationship for a minute ( I think I'm gonna burst from the euphoria! lol). It's spring- the crocuses are in bloom, the robins are back and the lilacs are budded. It rocks not hearing "winter storm warning is in effect until blah blah" on the radio every morning. I bought Brenna some rambling roses yesterday so she can decorate the yard. I'm gonna build a cool looking trellis for them to grow along. Freaking plant flowers?! Me?! Wow- life has changed! lol Here I go again....
I'll close now before I spill too much joy all over you! It's sappy sick! rofl
Have a super day!
Monday, March 30, 2009
It Don't Taste Like Chicken
Ok, the title...I couldn't resist the title...lol...I am in a giddy almost stupidly euphoric mood this morning....
So, yesterday I decided to meander into my sweetie's room and awaken her per the norm... no plans to do more than a huge lingering hug....well, toss my salad and call me caesar if she didn't roll over, give me that sheepish little smile of hers and pull me in for a longer wake up call. Yeeee-hawwww! :o) I can say I'm officially a non-virgin! rofl....
We spent hours together afterwards and you have to know I spent most of the day reliving these tender moments in my mind. Wow! And the second greatest part? I performed well enough she found the skyrockets! That honestly was something I was worried about- hey, I've only been with guys up to this point. Didn't know if I could make her feel the way I wanted. Amazing where love will take us!
But the greatest part was, of course, the closeness- being intimately united with the one I have secretly loved for many years. Ah yes! What a freakin' rush! I'm gonna freeze those moments and keep them alive in my heart forever. Dang, I'm such a freakin' sap! lol
Ok, maybe there's one more great part- it's still raining here and it's her day off! We may just have to 'watch a movie' for a while this morning! rofl....
Have a super day wherever you are and whatever you do. :o)
So, yesterday I decided to meander into my sweetie's room and awaken her per the norm... no plans to do more than a huge lingering hug....well, toss my salad and call me caesar if she didn't roll over, give me that sheepish little smile of hers and pull me in for a longer wake up call. Yeeee-hawwww! :o) I can say I'm officially a non-virgin! rofl....
We spent hours together afterwards and you have to know I spent most of the day reliving these tender moments in my mind. Wow! And the second greatest part? I performed well enough she found the skyrockets! That honestly was something I was worried about- hey, I've only been with guys up to this point. Didn't know if I could make her feel the way I wanted. Amazing where love will take us!
But the greatest part was, of course, the closeness- being intimately united with the one I have secretly loved for many years. Ah yes! What a freakin' rush! I'm gonna freeze those moments and keep them alive in my heart forever. Dang, I'm such a freakin' sap! lol
Ok, maybe there's one more great part- it's still raining here and it's her day off! We may just have to 'watch a movie' for a while this morning! rofl....
Have a super day wherever you are and whatever you do. :o)
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Good morning at noontime ;o)
Ok, just stopping in quickly to see what's up out here. Yes you did read the headline correctly- I am officially saying good morning at noontime. It's rainy and dreary in the northeast USA today but in my world it's blazingly sunny.
Jude, if you are reading this, you can chalk up another one-- you weren't wrong, but May's gonna be awesome too! ;o)
I'll be buzzing back in later today or early tmw to write more. Have a super day!
Jude, if you are reading this, you can chalk up another one-- you weren't wrong, but May's gonna be awesome too! ;o)
I'll be buzzing back in later today or early tmw to write more. Have a super day!
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